diff --git "a/backup/\350\257\273\344\271\246\350\256\260\345\277\206\357\274\232\350\200\201\350\210\215.md" "b/backup/\350\257\273\344\271\246\350\256\260\345\277\206\357\274\232\350\200\201\350\210\215.md" new file mode 100644 index 0000000..ee11397 --- /dev/null +++ "b/backup/\350\257\273\344\271\246\350\256\260\345\277\206\357\274\232\350\200\201\350\210\215.md" @@ -0,0 +1,22 @@ +读书记忆：老舍 + +2023-09-09 +熊氏阿回 + +90年代初，还是小学生的我去姑妈家里做客。记忆里的印象，是市财政局的苏式宿舍楼，高档的防盗门，客厅里的沙发像是跟新闻联播里看到的同款。最里的卧室飘着发甜的中药味，没有阳光，眼镜后面的姑妈带着病容倦容，倚在床上淡漠地听我的问候。而我的心思则早已到了另一则的书柜上，里面放着马恩列斯，毛选，文革样板戏的老唱片，此外还有好几部小说。 + +我在一个下午发现了人民文学出版社的《骆驼祥子》。封面装帧、纸张和字型都让我喜欢。我捧起书来，在姑妈家里的饭厅里一直看到晚上八九点，或坐或踞，有时几乎趴在了餐桌上，而我的目光离不开那书——于是，就这样兴致盎然地在文字里做了一次时间旅行，回到二十年代的北平。 + +小时候，家里的书柜上，鲁迅全集是齐了，虽然不是同一批次。看得最多的自然是呐喊、故事新编。然后是法国名著，巴尔扎克司汤达，接下来是俄罗斯三巨人，托尔斯泰契诃夫普希金。鲁郭茅巴老曹里的其余几位，大概都只收得一两本，而且并不以为意。小屁孩的我，在家里跟爸爸提到鲁迅，也加上“先生”两字在后面，别的人就没有这个待遇。鲁迅的文字，则从始至终就如一地老练、冷静。老舍的《骆驼祥子》写得俏皮、悲悯，京味文学于我有几分隐隐的隔膜，过瘾固然是过瘾的，我没有觉察祥子和老舍会与我有什么特别的联系。 + +接下来的几十年人生，很多书也不再打开，或者说也不再看什么书，但是老舍的散文倒是不时地看，《有了小孩以后》前些天还在看，老舍的文章特别的能够在这日常琐碎的时候给我一些安慰，他是一个酿蜜的人呢。 + +到了读图时代，作家和作品似乎更多要通过八卦走近普罗大众的眼球。一件件一桩桩中，老舍的太平湖自然也是常年的流量话题。舆论上，看客们总以为老舍在建国以后的文艺创作里面做了太多妥协，跟政治走得太近，太乖，工具人属性太强，后来又有了太平湖，错过了诺贝尔奖，等等等等。 + +而我却觉得心里老舍的印象却越来越清晰可辩，甚至像够得着的一位朋友。不仅是因为他写下的诸多日常生活，也因为他留下的创作经验和阅读经验。他的功力是从终年无休、苦力式的日积月累中来的，创作中能看到发展的痕迹，他愿意写，总在写，力图自己的写作对着社会有意义，可是也就多了许多的将就、无奈，像是找工的学生，到了社会上，只有靠着自己的勤奋去应付各种苛刻的条款。 + +而在人类社会，从头到尾都在出力出工的人，只会出力出工的人，真的会有想要的结局吗？ + +老舍有一部《正红旗下》，写清末旗人的生活，写得极好却没有写完。如果有平行时空的存在，我希望那里有一部写完的《正红旗下》；又或者，写过《有了小孩以后》的老舍，在那里有一个幸福、圆满的家庭。 + +痴迷小说的小孩子，喜欢听新鲜故事，喜欢看青春烟火，只嫌不够璀璨辉煌；而人到中年的我，只想在别人的生平中，寻找一点安慰和同情。 \ No newline at end of file diff --git a/blogBase.json b/blogBase.json index 65448e6..36c7bdd 100644 --- a/blogBase.json +++ b/blogBase.json @@ -1 +1 @@ -{"startSite": "", "filingNum": "", "onePageListNum": 15, "commentLabelColor": "#006b75", "yearColorList": ["#bc4c00", "#0969da", "#1f883d", "#A333D0"], "i18n": "CN", "dayTheme": "light", "nightTheme": "dark", "urlMode": "pinyin", "title": "Suredream", "displayTitle": "suredream", "subTitle": "\u65e0\u8bba\u60c5\u51b5\u591a\u7cdf\u7cd5\uff0c\u59cb\u7ec8\u662f\u4f60\u81ea\u5df1\u7684\u95ee\u9898\uff0c\u9664\u4e86\u5168\u529b\u89e3\u51b3\uff0c\u5e76\u65e0\u4ed6\u6cd5\u3002", "homeUrl": "https://github.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/issues", "avatarUrl": "https://raw.githubusercontent.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/main/favicon.ico", "faviconUrl": "https://raw.githubusercontent.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/main/favicon.ico", "singlePage": [], "GMEEK_VERSION": "last", "postListJson": {"P1": {"htmlDir": "docs/post/kai-shi-shi-yong- Gmeek -xie-ri-zhi.html", "label": "good first issue", "labelColor": "#7057ff", "postTitle": "\u5f00\u59cb\u4f7f\u7528 Gmeek \u5199\u65e5\u5fd7", "postUrl": "post/kai-shi-shi-yong-%20Gmeek%20-xie-ri-zhi.html", "postSourceUrl": "https://github.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/issues/1", "commentNum": 0, "description": "\u4eca\u5929\u662f 2023/12/01\u3002", "top": 0, "createdAt": 1701480507, "style": "", "script": "", "createdDate": "2023-12-02", "dateLabelColor": "#A333D0"}, "P2": {"htmlDir": "docs/post/jiao-hui-de-yu-er-ban-\uff0c-yi-ji-tuo-yuan-ji.html", "label": "post", "labelColor": "#0075ca", "postTitle": "\u6559\u4f1a\u7684\u80b2\u513f\u73ed\uff0c\u4ee5\u53ca\u692d\u5706\u673a", "postUrl": "post/jiao-hui-de-yu-er-ban-%EF%BC%8C-yi-ji-tuo-yuan-ji.html", "postSourceUrl": "https://github.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/issues/2", "commentNum": 0, "description": "\u65e9\u4e0a\u53bb\u6559\u4f1a\u7684\u80b2\u513f\u73ed\u9047\u5230 Julie \u548c Alana\u3002", "top": 0, "createdAt": 1701649295, "style": "", "script": "", "createdDate": "2023-12-04", "dateLabelColor": "#A333D0"}, "P3": {"htmlDir": "docs/post/Ll.html", "label": "help wanted", "labelColor": "#008672", "postTitle": "Ll", "postUrl": "post/Ll.html", "postSourceUrl": "https://github.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/issues/3", "commentNum": 0, "description": "\u8bfb\u4e66\u8bb0\u5fc6\uff1a\u8001\u820d\n\n2023-09-09\n\u718a\u6c0f\u963f\u56de\n\n90\u5e74\u4ee3\u521d\uff0c\u8fd8\u662f\u5c0f\u5b66\u751f\u7684\u6211\u53bb\u59d1\u5988\u5bb6\u91cc\u505a\u5ba2\u3002", "top": 0, "createdAt": 1701656267, "style": "", "script": "", "createdDate": "2023-12-04", "dateLabelColor": "#A333D0"}}, "singeListJson": {}, "prevUrl": "disabled", "nextUrl": "disabled"} \ No newline at end of file +{"startSite": "", "filingNum": "", "onePageListNum": 15, "commentLabelColor": "#006b75", "yearColorList": ["#bc4c00", "#0969da", "#1f883d", "#A333D0"], "i18n": "CN", "dayTheme": "light", "nightTheme": "dark", "urlMode": "pinyin", "title": "Suredream", "displayTitle": "suredream", "subTitle": "\u65e0\u8bba\u60c5\u51b5\u591a\u7cdf\u7cd5\uff0c\u59cb\u7ec8\u662f\u4f60\u81ea\u5df1\u7684\u95ee\u9898\uff0c\u9664\u4e86\u5168\u529b\u89e3\u51b3\uff0c\u5e76\u65e0\u4ed6\u6cd5\u3002", "homeUrl": "https://github.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/issues", "avatarUrl": "https://raw.githubusercontent.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/main/favicon.ico", "faviconUrl": "https://raw.githubusercontent.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/main/favicon.ico", "singlePage": [], "GMEEK_VERSION": "last", "postListJson": {"P1": {"htmlDir": "docs/post/kai-shi-shi-yong- Gmeek -xie-ri-zhi.html", "label": "good first issue", "labelColor": "#7057ff", "postTitle": "\u5f00\u59cb\u4f7f\u7528 Gmeek \u5199\u65e5\u5fd7", "postUrl": "post/kai-shi-shi-yong-%20Gmeek%20-xie-ri-zhi.html", "postSourceUrl": "https://github.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/issues/1", "commentNum": 0, "description": "\u4eca\u5929\u662f 2023/12/01\u3002", "top": 0, "createdAt": 1701480507, "style": "", "script": "", "createdDate": "2023-12-02", "dateLabelColor": "#A333D0"}, "P2": {"htmlDir": "docs/post/jiao-hui-de-yu-er-ban-\uff0c-yi-ji-tuo-yuan-ji.html", "label": "post", "labelColor": "#0075ca", "postTitle": "\u6559\u4f1a\u7684\u80b2\u513f\u73ed\uff0c\u4ee5\u53ca\u692d\u5706\u673a", "postUrl": "post/jiao-hui-de-yu-er-ban-%EF%BC%8C-yi-ji-tuo-yuan-ji.html", "postSourceUrl": "https://github.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/issues/2", "commentNum": 0, "description": "\u65e9\u4e0a\u53bb\u6559\u4f1a\u7684\u80b2\u513f\u73ed\u9047\u5230 Julie \u548c Alana\u3002", "top": 0, "createdAt": 1701649295, "style": "", "script": "", "createdDate": "2023-12-04", "dateLabelColor": "#A333D0"}, "P3": {"htmlDir": "docs/post/du-shu-ji-yi-\uff1a-lao-she.html", "label": "read", "labelColor": "#008672", "postTitle": "\u8bfb\u4e66\u8bb0\u5fc6\uff1a\u8001\u820d", "postUrl": "post/du-shu-ji-yi-%EF%BC%9A-lao-she.html", "postSourceUrl": "https://github.com/suredream/suredream.github.io/issues/3", "commentNum": 0, "description": "\u8bfb\u4e66\u8bb0\u5fc6\uff1a\u8001\u820d\n\n2023-09-09\n\u718a\u6c0f\u963f\u56de\n\n90\u5e74\u4ee3\u521d\uff0c\u8fd8\u662f\u5c0f\u5b66\u751f\u7684\u6211\u53bb\u59d1\u5988\u5bb6\u91cc\u505a\u5ba2\u3002", "top": 0, "createdAt": 1701656267, "style": "", "script": "", "createdDate": "2023-12-04", "dateLabelColor": "#A333D0"}}, "singeListJson": {}, "prevUrl": "disabled", "nextUrl": "disabled"} \ No newline at end of file diff --git a/docs/index.html b/docs/index.html index dfaaa58..3cb7d23 100644 --- a/docs/index.html +++ b/docs/index.html @@ -73,15 +73,15 @@

无论情况多糟糕，始终是你自己的问题，除了全力解决，并无他法。